Please pray for me, I'm miserable

Using my main account because I don't care anymore.

I'm tired of being fucking miserable all the time. I'm going nowhere in life. I dropped out of college because of depression and now I'm 11 grand in debt with no way to afford to go back. I'm working a basic job with no growth or advancement that can't allow me to move out of my parents house and live independently. I have no idea if I'm actually skilled at anything or just have delusions that I do or friends and family that are too nice to tell me that I suck. I pour all my creative energy into a YouTube channel that nobody cares about. I've never had a girlfriend and probably never will. My best friend moved away and my mother recently passed away. I doubt my faith every day and don't feel a thing when I worship or read scripture. Somethings gotta give, but I see no way forward to feel happy, successful, and independent. I don't know what to do anymore except beg somebody, anybody for help. I don't even know what I want except maybe some shred of hope it forward progress. Thanks for reading I guess. I just want this suffering to be over.